Fear

Fear has kept me from doing so many things, like going to concerts, or applying to certain jobs. It kept me from relationships too. But I’m learning to overcome some of those fears.

I answered an ad on Craigslist a few months ago. I met someone interesting. We might be going out again tomorrow night. I quit listening to the voice tell me that I was too old, and no one would be interested in me. She is interested. I don’t care if the interest is only to hang out, or if it does get sexual again. I didn’t let the fear control me.

I went to the beach by myself today. I stayed in the van, and read, but I went by myself. To me, that’s a victory. I got out of my comfort zone. It felt good.

Baby steps are still steps forward. A few months ago, I didn’t think that it was possible for me to have a female I could explore with, but maybe I have one now. Things change, and people change. I may be getting older, but I’m still learning and growing.