It’s kind of interesting getting people’s opinions on being married to a man, but dating a woman.
I’ve been told they don’t understand (and that’s understandable).
I’ve been asked if threesomes were in the future (most emphatically, NO!).
That I was breaking my marriage vows (technically, yes. But I have permission)
I been told they don’t understand how I can say I love my husband, but choose to look elsewhere too. (Frankly, he’s not a woman, and I want to explore that part of me)
She asked me what I wanted out of it. I want the companionship of a female. It may just only be friendship, or maybe it may be much more. But I want both the mental, and the physical connection. I already feel a mental connection. We will have to see on the physical.
The thought of the physical part is scary. I have not been naked in front of anyone other than my husband in over 23 years. I asked her if she knew I was big, and she said, of course. She’s willing to see what happens. I have so many flaws, that I’m afraid I’ll chicken out.
I could be getting way ahead of myself here. We could end up as friends. Since I do want a friend, I am ok with that. Do I want sex? Yes, but the thought of it is mind boggling. I have no idea what to do. I only have one single experience with a woman.
I asked a male friend how to go down on a woman. He gave me a few tips. One of them being, don’t bite. Yikes. I have a weird compulsion to bite when I get aroused. Not hard, just nips. Not a good thing when in such a sensitive area.
It’s almost 2am, and I should be asleep. I have a 40 mile trip to go meet her. The distance is going to play a part in this. Ironically, both of us have a fear of bridges. And we live on opposite sides of a wide canal. I’m going to conquer my fear, and do this.
When I came out on Facebook two years ago, I said I was bi, but because I’m married, I wouldn’t be in a relationship with a woman. That may change tomorrow.
However this turns out, it will have a big impact on my life. I think having her in my life will be a positive thing. I am looking forward to discovering what will happen.