I’ve said before that I wanted a girl friend. My husband gave me permission. Then I realized that meant I would have to actively go look for one. I panicked, and basically said, “Forget it”.
You would think that being a woman, I’d have a clue what to look for, and how to go about doing it. I don’t have a clue. Men are simple. It’s easy to pick one up, and to keep them if you’re so inclined. Women are alien creatures to me. And I’m a woman!
I’m a mess. I am filled with self doubts. What kind of woman would be interested in a 47 year old (basically) virgin? On top of that, I’m bisexual, and married to a man.
I don’t understand women. I’ve had more male friends than I’ve had female friends. I never realized until recently it was because I was attracted to them, and just didn’t know how to react. Like I said, men are simple. It basically boils down to sexual attraction to them. Women are so complex.
I’ve heard the saying that women need a reason to have sex. Men just need a place. I’m not a man hater, men really are just not as complicated.
On top of everything, you don’t know if a woman is up for being approached by another woman. I’m so introverted, and shy that I can barely talk to anyone I don’t know. I’d be absolutely tongue-tied with someone I was attracted to.
I’ve been told to quit assuming things. That it’s quite possible a female would be attracted to me, and flirt. But my problem is that I would be so awkward, I wouldn’t know how to respond.
My husband said I could have a girlfriend, but he doesn’t want me to. In all reality, the likelihood of that happening is slim to none. He would probably never have to worry about it occurring.
I am a female, but that doesn’t mean I have a clue about how other women think. It doesn’t help that I’m bisexual either. Being attracted to both sexes is more of a hindrance than anything.
I guess I’m just going to ignore the same sex attraction, and not worry about getting a female as a girlfriend or even as a hook up. I will just leave that in the hands of fate. It’s a cop out, but I honestly don’t know how else to deal with it. It is what it is. (And I still hate that phrase)